It is ok...

Have you wanted to hear those words before in your life...

Hey it is ok you are mad at....

Hey it is ok you are sad...

Hey it is ok to be happy...

Well I have heard those words over and over this summer in my head, and I know they come from God above.... Why do I know they came from God, because he gave me time to heal.

A little over 2 years ago I wrote these words: You see, God gave us all plenty of time, and it is how we choose to use the time that can make a difference in our lives and the lives of others.

It was the day after my Dad died, I knew I wanted to speak at his funeral, and this was the first sentence that was typed out on the computer. Time Time Time... What was the significance of time... As I sat there with tear filled eyes I thought of all the time my Dad spent just being himself, Wise, Unselfish, Caring, Protecting, and Loving. What I wrote about that day was how he valued the time he had on this earth, and used his time to be what he was Dad.

Well 2 years have passed and now I have a different perspective on time. I also wrote this that same day: Thank you Dad for taking the time. Thank you God for giving us a Dad who took the time.

Right now I can say: Thank you God for giving me the time.

Although I never stopped believing in God over the past 2 years, I defiantly was just working through the motions. Failed attempts to read my bible more, straining to pray, just trying to hear God again in my heart. Music that I loved became noise in the background... But I pushed on just asking every time I remembered to pray, God just move me, help me, feed me something....

I was struggling. I didn't have my Dad to measure up to any more, and I was slipping back into an old pattern of self doubt, I just didn't think I had what it takes to make a difference...

Then one night last spring, my heart broke, not for loosing Dad, but for me... God broke through (As he always does if you let him...) As I laid in bed in tears, my wife trying to comfort me, the words hit me...Softly and Gentle...

It is OK.... What? What do you mean ok.... It is OK.... What to sit here and blubber like an idiot... It is OK... What to loose sleep night after night trying to figure out if I will ever..... Ever what? IT IS OK.... To be mad that you can't turn to your Dad, it is OK to be sad that he won't be there when you walk into the house... It is OK to be happy... Happy what do you mean happy. It is OK to live your life. It is OK to stretch your limits, and be the man God wants you to be....

IT IS OK....

God is amazing... He gave me the time to heal, and he never left my side. All the time he knew as he always did and does that... It is OK....

Now I feel a fire burning that fills me, guides me and tells me every morning, IT IS OK, I am with you.....It is now I know he never left....

God was with Joshua... As he was and is with every believer.... http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?book_id=6&chapter=3&version=31

My Faith and Belief in Christ

Jesus was fully human, and sacrificed by dying for us... He Rose again to prove once and for all that not only was he human he was God incarnate, and to also show his power over death and sin.  

Here is why I have faith in Christ.

I took the leap of faith to believe in Jesus,  it is the evidence that I have after the fact the shows me that my leap was worth it.  The Change in my life and how I lead my family and look at other people can only come from having Christ in my heart.   I find myself doing things for others that I would have never done before I believed.  Not because I earn my way to heaven, but becuase the things I do are what Jesus did and would do.

Belief in Christ is a True change of heart.  ONLY GOD KNOWS if your heart has truely changed.  

I also believe that I do not look to other Christians as examples on how to live, I look to Christ as my example.   

Just a quick thought.

God being all powerful and all knowing, knows that his plan is working. How cool would it be to know that all the goals and dreams you have are just going to happen? For me not that cool at all. If it were not for my failures and successes I would not have the faith in Christ that I do.

The awsome power that God is, allows us to fail and get back up looking for him to help us.

Then when we do succeeded he celebrates with us, and is proud of us.

How awsome to have that love and support without question.

17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. EPH 3: 17-19

Questions...

Why do we believe a man who was a simple carpenter, can save our souls from eternal damnation? Why do we throw our faith blindly at a man whose only full historic record is in a book that has caused wars, political arguments, and religious strife for centuries? So what is it about faith in God that captivates some and turns away others? Why do some embrace Faith in God and some shun it?

These questions run deep but they are not the questions that most Christians ask themselves on a daily basis. Most questions have to do with everyday issues; from money to family, from alcohol to sex, from sin to forgiveness. And most of the time we turn to other Christian friends to talk about these issues and seek advice. Have you ever wondered how other Christians talk about these issues, and whether the advice you get or conclusions drawn are biblically sound?

I can't say that I have all the answers about faith, but over the next 21 months I will be taking classes at church to complete a Discipleship program that will teach me how to interpret the bible and become a protector of the word. I will then be able to lead other men to become protectors of the word. I plan to post on what I learn, and how what I learn strengthens my faith in God and his salvation.

If you find this blog feel free to post replys. I only ask that you keep the posts clean, and G rated as my wife, daughter, sisters, mother, nieces, nephews, aunts, uncles, brother and sister in law's, mother and father in laws, and all of God children will be able to read this blog.

Here is to God in all his glory and his Son Jesus Christ.